chi's space

Age 18  Savage Garden animal song Jay Chou Long Juan Feng
Age 19 Evanescence Tourniquet Eminem Superman
Age 20 Green Day Boulevard of Broken Dreams Zhang Chu Jie Jie
Age 21 Guo Wei VC Shuang Chong Sheng Ming Timo Tolkki Are You The One
Age 22 Lake of Tears To Blossom Blue He Yong Zhong Gu Lou
Age 23 Cui Jian Yi Kuai Hong Bu  Guns 'n' Roses November Rain
Age 24 Sonam Wangmo Qing Zang Gao Yuan Han Lei Dong Gui Ying Xiong Zhuan

My 25th birthday, nothing has changed.
Watched a lot of movies last year, including the Last Emperor, Seven Samurai, the Last Samurai, Moscow does not believe in tears, the shitty "the founding of a Republic", some parts of the 1997 Lolita, City of Life and Death, Taegukgi, Assembly. Don't know why I watched so many serious movies.
Also watched a bunch of documentaries, including the two cultural revolution ones and Linzhao again. Got different feelings.
Everyone has some code to live by, so do I. Last year I changed a lot.
What I got from age 23:
1. Never believe in love.
2. Playing computer games is bad for you in ten ways(figured out how but never figured out why)
3. Turn to PUNK rock, Light rock. Haven't listened to Heavy music then.
4. I become a secular person, that is ,equal respect for every god, because I believe for every person his or her god is different.
What I got from age 24:
1. In my heart there is a massive grassland. I hope one day I will ride the spirit to the end of the sky. Being a nomad in this concrete jungle is right for me, since I once had a deep feeling about going home with someone, to see my parents, a traditional Chinese scene which is all red, red blankets, red beverage, red every candles, etc... But now I know I can not do this, human societies have not reached that level yet. Although I am the only son in the family, the situation stays the same. Goodbye everyone who miss me, because there is a chance you may not see me again tomorrow. I don't know where I will be since there are so many things in this world we can not anticipate, just like you don't  know another person, even you have been living together for years. Don't cry for me because if God said I should die then I'd better die, whether it is for me to die alone, die with my friends or enemies.
2. I made a decision whether I am created based on science or art. And my answer is science. I believe in science and I live by science. Art is good in many ways but it takes your life away. Satan dances with arts. That is because I think physical being is more than just spirituality and ideas.(Computer Games are pieces of shitty art.)
3. Figured out that for me Chinese language is a backward language, along with some of its culture. Right now my view has slightly changed, Chinese characters are good at writing log files. It will keep your log file short as hell. That is why Chinese history is the best preserved history in the world. I have an idea of creating a new Chinese language that can be easily used by Chinese, Korean, Japanese, Mongolian, Tibetan and Vietnamese people. A new language that will be risen in East Asia which is better than English in abundance of  expressions and accuracy of conceptions.
4. Turn to Tibetan music and Mongolian music, really don't care about the western influence. Chinese music is dumb as hell. American music's shit is the input of JPop and KPop, and then the shit of JPop and KPop are input of Chinese Pop Music. Chinese folk music is also heavily influenced by other ethnic groups. So you could say there is no real Chinese Han music. The only original Chinese Han music left are pieces of shit that advocates backward peasant-landlord values.
5. Had much more respect for the southern Chinese people, because China is defended by the southern soldiers mainly during the Japanese invasion, but I still prefer northern girls! Don't be confused. My Grandfathers are from north and my Grandmothers are from south, so I am hybrid.
6. In fact I am more aware that I am an Asian minority that smart east Asians should help each other instead of pointing their guns to each other.
7. No fear of programming anymore. I love solving problems, if it does not ruin my health.
8. Decided to learn Kendo if there is any chance. I am short person and I should learn from Japanese people about this. I really respect them on this point, although Bushido is used wrongfully during the WW2.